We all want to see growth. That is encouraging and hopeful. But, God is just as gracious, just as faithful, and just as much in control and at work when we don't see the growth... when all we see are weeds that need to be pulled and ground that is harder than a rock. Sometimes our season is lonely. Sometimes it is lonely because we don't allow others to walk beside us.
I am learning some things about myself. I can't even put them all into words right now, but I am just reminding myself that there are seasons in this life. To be honest, we have experienced so much blessing, and so much of God's abundant grace, that I really just need to sit with my face in the carpet. And we have experienced some difficulties, here and there, but God's mercy has always covered it. And I am not entirely sure what my point is, why I am rambling here on my blog... except to say, that in this wonderful season, in whatever God is bringing... I am aware of some weeds, and some hard ground. I am aware of some things in my heart that will need to die, if new life is going to come out of what's there. I am... humbled.
"Most assuredly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the ground and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it produces much grain. He who loves his life will lose it, and he who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life. If anyone serves Me, let him follow Me; and where I am, there My servant will be also. If anyone serves Me, him My Father will honor." John 12:24-26