Sad Day...

Okay, I don't really consider myself a super-hippie, nurse until they are five type of mom.  But, I really do enjoy nursing, and I don't really care for that special time to be cut short!!!  But, at least for now, I am going to have to stop nursing Ezra.  I am pumping right now, to keep my milk in case that situation changes.  But, although it is very difficult for me to stop nursing, I do have three other kiddos to think about, and I have been in so much pain, that I really do need to find a way to get some relief, otherwise, I won't be any good to anyone!!

Yesterday, we went to the ER at Cottage Hospital.  We were able to see the ER doctor.  In the midst of one of my "episodes" of pain, he asked if I wanted a shot for the pain, at which point I am thinking, "YES!!! Wait, does that mean I can't nurse baby??"  A million things were running through my head, but I was in so much pain, so I decided to say yes.  The doctor and the nurses left and came back... oh, about 20 or so minutes later.  Which, is okay, because the episodes of pain last only a few minutes, and then I am okay until the next one.  By this time, I was out of pain, and didn't really want to be given any medicine.  When the doctor came back, he said he had consulted with a neurologist, and they suspect that it is a condition called Trigeminal Neuralgia.  They have prescribed some anti-convulsant medication, which should hopefully help with the pain, and a strong narcotic to make it through the weekend.  I am to call the neurologist on Monday, and hopefully get in to see him.  I can see God working so mightily, and so graciously, and was so excited to see that the neurologist that was consulted "just happened" (wink, wink) to be a provider on our insurance.  I am doing my best to get by without taking the narcotics, however, these bouts of pain are incredibly painful, and nighttime usually brings the worst of it for me.  I would appreciate your prayers on our behalf, as I have not been of much use to my family with all the pain.  We are so thankful for all the help of our family and friends, for your prayers.  We are hopeful that we will have some answers, and hopefully some relief soon!  And although I am sad to not be nursing Ezra, he is taking it like a champ, and seems to be quite happy eating lots of food.  I am still deciding just what we will do with him....